I really Miss You / Kelsey (friend)
Brandon,
I havent been on in awhile, and that may be because it hurts so much -- or it may be because i cant face that you're gone!! In a way i feel like i shouldve been there, i should've tried harder, it should be me & not you!! Everyone tells me that everything happens for a reason -- && somedays its ok, and i will wake up and move on because i know in my heart you are in a better place. And somedays i will wake up from a dream of you and it tears me apart. Not a day goes by that i dont look at your picture, and not a day goes by that i dont remember something you said, or did. When the 25th came i knew what the day was, i remembered Elijahjuan calling, and i remember how i felt all over again. I feel like i lost my best friend, i feel like the whole world just doesnt understand, and i feel like no matter what sentencing that man got, it will never be enough. But i also know that you had a heart of gold. & that no matter you have forgiven him...and you hope that he learns from it in the time that he will spend in there.
The other night i talked to you in my dream -- and you told me that there was nothing i could do, and that you were happy. That life is never what it seems and that you have to make the best of it no matter what situation God may throw at you. I know this will make me stronger! And i know this will teach me about the world, about others, and about myself. But i also know that i will never stop hurting from this, and that i will never forget you. You were there so many times for me to talk to...and you will never know how much i appreciated that. As life goes on, and more people pass, i always think back to you Brandon, and though i may shed a tear, i smile...because i remember the good times over the bad. I remember your smile over the pain, and i remember your laughter over the tears. You are and will always be a ray of sunshine & i love you for that. I wrote you a poem the day of your funeral -- it was the only way i could deal with the pain and finally i want you to hear it.
I'll never understand, some of the things you do.
Now that you're gone, im stuck missing you.
I will always wonder what, was going through your mind.
When you not only tried to run, but you also tried to hide.
You were running from a force, far greater than yourself.
Your last breaths were taken, and to your knees you fell.
Out of all the ignorance in the world, it reared it's head to you.
In a blink of an eye you were gone, and i just cant believe its true.
When they took you brandon, they took a part of me.
God called upon you, and he finally set you free.
I know one day i'll see your face, and together we will be again.
Because sweet Brandon, your smile can only brighten up Heaven.
R.I.P. Brandon Chadwick Dunson~Taylor
We Love && Miss You
&& one day we will come home to you.
Bye for now, but never forever -- Kelsey
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